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vagabond dreaming

have you ever asked yourself what a happy life looks like? The feeling of almost touching the sky, experiencing a perfect balance in your life like there is already everything inside you that you ever wished for?

There was one beautiful spring evening. The sun had already gone down behind Mount Pilatus, leaving the last birds flying across the cloudless sky - looking for their family, their home, their place to be. I went for a stroll, and when I reached the top of the hill at my parent's hometown, I lay on the dry grass, facing the first stars in the still blueish sky, and flew away into my childhood dreams of neverland and never-ending stories. And I just started to ask myself: How would life be like, if there were no obligations, no responsibilities, no limitations? Could I ever just fly away and touch the sky, spreading out happiness like there would be no tomorrow? Living in a real dream right here, right now, never again looking for answers life brings with it? And if there is a tomorrow, could it be possible to leave it a secret not ready yet to explore? I asked myself all these questions lately and it brought me to tears. Trapped in my everyday life routine, I felt my life was passing by and all that was left were my daily struggles. Wake up in the morning knowing it's going to be a day predicted like every day before, working all day long, not even recognizing the sun moving over the horizon. Running to catch the trains in the morning as getting out of bed was once more the biggest struggle against myself. Tired evenings of having no minute left to myself and my dreams, going to bed already knowing the alarm in the morning is going to hit me again. Did I grow up this fast? Was I bound to take this responsibility? Could life not just be exciting and peaceful?

I knew earlier on I wanted to change my life to make every day the best I could dream about. But was this even possible? After reading myself through several pieces of literature telling me how to get the best out of life, I just signed up for a year course, becoming a professional field guide in South Africa (but that's a whole different story I'm going to tell you another time). That's when I met Frank – and he just changed everything in my life in a good way - showing me how life could be easy and beautiful. When I first met Frank, we texted a lot and I just knew right from the start, that there was something so fascinating about this person. I had no doubt I wanted to know everything about his life and his dreams. I wanted to explore them with him. We met at the Zurich main station. Him holding a big yellow umbrella above his head, me bringing Baby Yoda in my arms, both not ready to face the life of an adult, both knowing no matter what, we are going on a road trip together bringing us to Lake Como in Italy. We talked, laughed, and shared our dreams of freedom, simplicity, and childhood fantasies all night long and it didn't take us long until we started dating. And ever since then, I knew I found my happy way through life. We both know. In only 80 days, we filled every free minute of our beautiful life with adventures next to both working full-time jobs. We crossed the Swiss border several times, climbed up Mount Rigi and Mount Pilatus, slept in our tent almost every weekend, even built up our tent in Franks room, went all the way to Berlin at a weekend with our 9 Euro ticket, felt the strength of mother nature in a mountain thunderstorm and almost got hit by a lighting, got to know each others family, went to a road trip to South France by driving down the coast with two amazing friends of Franks, went on a road trip to Canton of Grisons, visiting places in the beautiful mountains of the Swiss national park, played guitar and ukulele and singed along as loud as possible…and yeah, we also had our lows, like Frank got sting by a sea urching in South France and never really got rid of the spikes, I sprained my ankle on Mount Rigi like real hard, it was double sized afterwards, we both went through sickness more than once, struggled with our everyday lifes and encouraged each others in situations we definitely were close to the end of our strength. My last 80 days felt like we had already gone around the world, I felt more alive than ever before and we made plans about all our dreams and thoughts about how we wanted to create our future.

How would life be like, if there were no obligations, no responsibilities, no limitations? Could we ever just fly away and touch the sky, spreading out happiness like there would be no tomorrow? Yes, we both believe in this kind of life and that's our life goal. We are going to find out, how beautiful life can be and there is nothing we like more than sharing our adventures, our mindset, and our realizations with you right here, right now, till forever falls apart.

With 🐝 by Evelyne.